chapter 50

✑ Chapter 73

HIS head was still on Fauzia's palm when he heard her moan and get up with her eyes still closed.

Austin sat up properly and supported his love to lie down again, he could feel her gasping. His wife has difficulty breathing.

"Lie down first…" he said, adjusting her head on her pillow. "How are you feeling, mon amour?"

Fauzia still did not open her eyes but now she was holding her forehead and her breathing was already calm.

"I'm okay, my head still hurts a bit but it's tolerable. Wait, what happened?” Her eyes are already open.

Austin flipped her hair over her shoulder before leaning to give Fauzia a peck kiss on her lips. “You blackout suddenly, after our exchange of vows. Is there anything hurting in you?” he asked as he laid down on the chair, slightly relaxed his body.

She nodded.

Her face looked down, Fauzia bit her lower lip. Guilt spread through her pale face. “I’m sorry…” she heaved a deep sigh. “I ruined our wedding day, I tried holding back the pain but I didn’t get even to it. I really want to give a memorable wedding but I failed.”

He cupped her cold hand, placing small kisses on the back of her palm. "No, it's not your fault. If I only knew that it would have been like this I would not have hurried our wedding, you even forced your body that was hurting earlier. I’m so sorry too, mon amour. I am the one who should apologize.”

Fauzia reached for her husband's curly hair to trace her fingers on it. She brought him closer to her.

She moved to lay her husband down next to her.

Austin just let her pull him, as he lay down properly he pressed his face against Fauzia's neck. Arms tightly wrapped around Fauzia's body.

“Aren't you having a hard time or getting hot in what you're wearing? What time is it?"

"Quarter to five I think?"

She was shocked at what he said to her. “How’s Emo?”

"I already took care of him, mon amour," He answered, his breathing was heavy.

Fauzia rubbed his back. “You should change, love. You might get sick. You are already sweating---” she stopped what she was about to say when she heard him softly snoring. "You must've really tired waiting for me," she said as she combed her husband's hair.

She stared at Austin for a few seconds before lifting her body to take off his top. He might get difficulty, Austin may catch a cold because he let his sweat got dry up. 

They were both in their household so she just let Austin naked next to her.

While her arm was on her head that was resting on her palm, she decided to look closely at her husband as if she was remembering every part of his face.

She wouldn’t have thought that someone like him would come into her life, never came across in her mind that a guy would have an interest in her.

Especially since he had no interest in women.

She just smiled at those things that entered in her mind as her gaze lingered on Austin's gentle face.

`What’s up with me? What did this man see in me to stumble on me?`

Ever since she met Austin with his friends the fear in her heart had disappeared.

Staying with them was everything to her, opening her heart to them is a big change for her.

She did not think that she would get to the point in her life that she would meet these good people. And she was even more grateful for those people than she had ever been through.

It may seem like a small thing but for her feelings and heart, it was too big.

Fauzia will always thank God for giving her the instrument to change her life.

She couldn’t express how grateful she was, she could say a lot of words of thanks to them but that lacked the happiness she felt.

Several times her lips touched Austin's body. “Thank you so much, my love. I do not know what will happen if I did not found you. I will carry this memory until I pass away.” She whispered passionately on her husband's head. She was hugging his head that was stuffed on her neck.

“I love you…”

She smiled as Austin moved closer to her. She felt a light kiss on her collarbone, he was awake again.

"You make my heart warm and happy, Fauzia," he whispered across her skin.

Even though Austin was wide awake he still did not change their position even though it was not comfortable for him.

"I forgot, we're having a baby now, my love." Her lips parted as well as her heart raced with excitement, she’s glad to hear that from him. "Helios checked, but…"

Her brows furrowed when he trailed off, he was having second thoughts if he’ll spill it or not.

Fauzia waited for what her husband would say but he still did not open his mouth. Because of that, her chest throbbed in worry.

His tone wasn’t sound right for her, so she was nervous about the reason behind the things that Austin will tell her.

“Then? What, Austin?” she impatiently asked him.

Her husband let out a heavy sigh.

He got up to see her face. “Helios said you have lupus. Thankfully it wasn’t lethal, if you have a kidney failure our baby is at risk. I learned that you can carefully give birth to our child, I will take care of you and take care of yourself too. Hmm, mon amour? ” he assured Fauzia's puzzled eyes.

Her body ran cold.

Now that explains why she’s not well for the past few days.

She nodded even if she was worried sick about their baby. "Our baby will be alright," she told herself trying to convince herself before looking into his eyes. "Right?"

He kissed her forehead, assuring her. “Of course, mon amour. She’ll be okay. ”

Her heart thundered when a dream came out of her mind.

A dream where she and Austin had a family that was happy and contented. No problem waiting for them.

`But it turned out wrong.`

She closed her eyes, Fauzia was remembering the images of her dream that happened a week ago.

She inferred her dreams and tried to remember, it entered her mind well but as time went on Austin and Seymour became dark and elusive to her, including the baby they had formed in that dream.

While her eyes were still closed, she could hear her own voice in her brain calling her loved ones.

Only then did Fauzia return to the present when the image that entered her mind changed.

And that went through the test that they had to choose between her and their child.

As her eyes opened, her gaze darted on her husband’s eyes. 

A weird feeling struck through her body. “If the time comes that you have to choose between me and our baby, please choose our baby, Austin,” she unconsciously said. 

“Our baby deserves to see the world with you…”