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Despite everything, she still couldn't believe that she had been able to take the definitive step that would lead her to see her again. She kept wondering if her older sister had changed on the outside, although to tell the truth she didn't care; A million years could have passed, but nothing would have made him forget those green eyes that once did him so much harm.
He did not know if he would finally attend the meeting, he simply had a feeling that he would. He had shown no sign of wanting to do otherwise. He had always been on the run, but Nora hoped he was different now. It had to be. Otherwise, it would be like taking a wrong step. He did not know his exact position, he did not know where his new residence was located, so technically he was staking it all on one card. Despite everything, he no longer had anything to lose. Angy would have a great job and a great family, she on the other hand… She just couldn't take anything more from her, so in a sense she had an advantage. What she wasn't so sure about was being able to hold back if things went wrong or if they didn't go as planned. She had promised herself that she would not be weak, but when she got off the plane the entire arsenal of memories she had been trying to avoid assaulted her.He booked a hotel room for two days, and then took a short walk around. He did not know the area and did not want to get lost. It was very early and there was still time for the expected meeting. She sighed a couple of times and resigned, she returned to the hotel. He became obsessed with the most suitable clothes he should wear. He did not want to give an image of a weak woman. That was behind us. She was already an adult and she had to act accordingly, so mistakes were not allowed. But it was a luxury to think like that, especially since he couldn't control everything that happened. It was up to her to keep her composure, but for the rest, she just had to pray and cross her fingers, straying in luck to see if it would work.Sudden fear washed over her as she realized something. What if Angy showed up with someone? What if Dorian also showed up for the appointment? Could I bear it? Could I even stand there without wanting to run away? Well, it was too late to back down, so I had to be strong and move on; She had been the one responsible for preparing all that, so the risks had to be taken. For the good of all, especially for your emotional integrity. He was strong, he had shown it during all those years, in which he had fought tooth and nail to cope with the ultimate loss of this man. She was gone, it had been a long time since she owned him. He had become a stranger and that was how he was to remain. Someone was waiting for her at home, it might not be better, but when she came back she would still be there, waiting for her, because Oliver loved her. He just hoped that over the days, weeks and months he could reciprocate with the same intensity, because he deserved it, that simple.Unable to delay it any longer, he went to the chosen place and waited there for her. The few people that appeared passed by, so technically it was the ideal place so that they were not interrupted by anyone. Deep nerves snaked in her stomach, and her fingers gleamed with sweat. She had imagined it differently, but still she wasn't ready to throw in the towel ahead of time. He managed to calm me down a bit, keeping in mind that he would return in two or three days at the most, so the agony would not last long. I was sure I could find what I was looking for.He was trying to create a kind of speech inside his head, following Kendra's advice not to leave everything to chance and improvisation, when his brain realized that someone was there, before the appointed time, earlier than expected, ahead of schedule. When he processed the visual information, he held his breath. He didn't even have the need to wonder if it was really her; of course it was, there was no question. It was as if time had not passed for Angy. She was still exactly the same, at least in appearance, however Nora was not, not quite, and for that she felt confused. She couldn't believe that after five years she would have been the only one to change, but considering the circumstances, it made sense. The pain had made her age slightly. The woman directly in front of him, five or twenty feet away, had enjoyed well-being, happiness. They hadn't had exactly the same opportunities.Angy was motionless, not knowing how to act. He had finally dared to go, although his face showed insecurity, perhaps fear. Her body language was clear: she wasn't comfortable. But once there, he couldn't turn around and leave. In a way she also wanted to close that part of her past, and for that they had to talk; that it was easy was another matter.Determined to break the ice, Nora dared to be the first to walk the distance between them. He felt the pounding of blood at his temples, and his body temperature had dropped suddenly, as if a jug of cold water had fallen on his shoulders. Never in her life had she been so nervous and so approachable at the same time. He had to take advantage of those moments of mutual indecision to appropriate the dominant role. It couldn't seem like she was scared to death, no. That was suicide. He had to be in control, and that was just what he was going to do.They were a meter apart when the young blonde stopped walking. They were silent for a couple of minutes, but Nora cut him off abruptly. She broke off her nerves and took the reins to channel that large-scale impact. He licked his lips and started to speak.-A lot of time has passed.That's it, at least I had already done it. However, Angy didn't say anything, but agreed.It was truly a situation beyond any normal standard. They had hurt each other and later they would meet again."You've changed," Angy said.Nora felt a pang of relief when she saw him speak back. "You, on the other hand, are still exactly the same as when you left."He didn't know if he had said it inadvertently or with a firm purpose, but he wasn't going to apologize, he had already lowered himself enough.-How do you feel? Angy asked, though immediately after asking the question she lowered her gaze ruefully."I've had better times, but I'm fine." He raised his head, still showing some of his old pride. And you? How's life treating you? Do you have everything you want?Her older sister looked at her with mixed feelings. Nothing had been prepared either, so they were literally adrift, waiting for imminent improvement.Again Nora decided to cut the throbbing tension that bound them together."Is there somewhere we can sit?"-Yes of course.Angy led her for a minute or two down a side asphalt road, then to a cafeteria. He held the door open and let Nora go in first."Sit where you want," Angy urged. I'm going to order a coffee. Do you want another?-No thanks. He glanced at a table perfectly set apart from the others on the back. I'll wait for you at that table in the back. Do not delay.When she was sitting, she didn't even know how to define the state she was in. Everything was spinning around him, it was so strange to him that he couldn't locate himself. But at least he was still in control. His older sister was not doing too well. He had watched her, and when he approached the table, he saw it clearly: his hands were shaking. When he sat next to her, the tension shot up again. Angy was unable to look directly at her. His eyes moved in all directions except to the right place."Please stop doing that." I need you to look at me so I can have a normal conversation.She got the effect she wanted, as Angy agreed and looked her, face to face."This is not normal…" "What?""That this is not normal, Nora." None of this is.Nora sighed and clenched her fists under the table."Do you regret having come?""No, it's just too much." I don't know if I'm ready to…" " Trust me, if you're here it's because you are. And I thank you for agreeing to come. I honestly don't know what I'd have done if you hadn't shown up.Angy drank her coffee, trying not to spill it, although with her nerves growing, the situation got complicated."I still know you well enough," Nora snapped. I know there is something you are dying to say, so don't hold back. Whatever it is, let it go. At least for this time be honest."Nora, I…" "Say it once," he murmured."I think you shouldn't have come." His face softened with honesty. I mean, why? The only thing you do with this is hurt yourself.Nora stared at him."I will decide that, Angy.""I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be…" "It's the same, never mind." -He frowned-. What does matter is that we are here now. We are adults, we are supposed to do it. You don't have to tremble, I have no intention of causing you trouble."I'm not trembling about it," Angy clarified."And then why?"A guilty grimace crossed his green eyes."Because I look at you and I can't stop remembering everything I did to you." And not a single day has passed during these years that I have stopped doing it. She tucked her hair behind her ear. That's why I find it hard to believe that you are here, despite everything, despite all the pain I caused you.He tried to ignore those words.-I do not want to talk about that."I know, and I also know it's too late to apologize, but ..." "I didn't come to hear your apologies, I don't want them."-And what do you want?Nora, biting her lip, reached into her jacket pocket and fiddled with something before deciding to show it. He sighed and picked up the small object. She held it hidden in the palm of her hand and then laid it on the table, feeling a part of her twitch from the memories."I think this is yours," he whispered, sliding the wedding band from his pocket across the surface and offering it to Angy. Or at least it should have been.Angy was so shocked that she didn't move. Her eyes were wide, and she seemed to have froze."Come on, take it."-Than?-Do it."I can't…"Nora stifled a sigh."We both know it is." He fought back the wail that gripped his throat. It belongs to you."This has nothing to do with…" Of course it has to do. This represents everything. -He frowned-. If I hadn't married him now we wouldn't be here. That day you should have taken my place. So none of this would have happened.Imminently, her older sister burst into tears. Quietly, but did it anyway. It seemed to be sincere."No, please don't cry," Nora muttered. Don't make it seem like I'm the only one to blame. You knew what you were doing. You always knew, Angy."You know that despite everything, I can never forgive myself.""I think you've shown you don't need it." His gaze stiffened. You have not needed to do it to live as you wanted."You may not believe me, but it wasn't easy at all.""The only thing I'm sure of is that it hasn't been at all for me." He cocked his head. I've been through things you can't even imagine. Even the simple act of breathing seemed unbearable. I thought that I would not get over it, that I could never recover from all that but I see that I was wrong. I had no choice but to start from scratch, even if to do so I had to erase everything that made sense to me from my life.Angy bit her lip, still teary-eyed."I tried to contact you many times, but never knew what to say." And when I got your message I couldn't believe it. She opened her mouth for air, like a fish caught out of water. She was convinced that it couldn't be true, that it would probably be a mistake, but it wasn't. It was you."Of course it was me." It couldn't be anyone else. She felt the lump in her throat grow. I felt like I couldn't leave things like that. It wasn't the right way, but he had no idea if he would succeed; if you would agree to see me."At first I thought I couldn't," Angy acknowledged, "but then I had no choice but to accept that it was the only way to try to tie up the loose ends, if such a thing is possible." He looked at her without blinking. I owed you."Exactly, and this is the first step." You don't have to run away, you already did. You disappeared and we haven't heard from you anymore. There are people who have suffered for it. Very much. He was obviously referring to his parents. You know? I have had no choice but to go to thousands of therapies, talk to psychologists who watched me like a madwoman in spite of her past unable to cope with what happened to her, but nobody has managed to get this absurd idea out of my head. It was like a damn song that was repeated over and over again. At first it didn't make sense, but as I dared to go a little further, I realized that all my thoughts ended in a single outlet. That's why I've caught a plane, that's why you have me in front of you. Anything could happen, but I can never forget what you did to me. I've spent all this time going to therapy, convincing myself that I could give new meaning to my life if I tried, and now all I see is that in order to do that I have to be able to understand what happened. Accept it, and realize that nothing will ever be the same. You two were responsible. He ran a hand over his forehead. Maybe if I had done things differently, it would have been different, but it is too late to regret it. You will not change my life, and it is clear that I will not change yours either. I imagine you are happy, but I want to be too. I think I deserve it.Angy had listened to her attentively, with all five senses.-What I can do?-Tell me something. She leaned across the table, causing her blonde hair to fall to her shoulders. Would you do it again?-Why do you ask me that?"Because to this day I still don't understand how you were able to ignore everything else just to be with him." Risking everything for something only you believed in. Were you so sure of what you were doing? Do you love him that much? Was it so important to you that you forgot about your own family?Angy bit her lip to keep it from trembling. He spoke without meeting her eyes."Nora, he has always been my family." It's what I've always wanted. Even when I did not see him again for those two years, I was not able to forget him. I didn't do things the way I should, that's something I can never forget, but I needed him like I've never needed anyone. I broke a million rules, the promises I made to myself, and everything that was never supposed to happen again. But it happened. I can't change who I am or what I did. Asking for your forgiveness has no value. I know that you will never be able to understand it and I am not asking you to do so, I do not even know why I am telling you this. I don't want to hurt you again."Well, you'll have to do it for me to heal me completely.""Nora, I don't know what you mean ..." "You know perfectly well. You can read between the lines. You are still a part of me.Angy leaned back."I can't take this." Her back was tense, considering leaving. I was supposed to walk away so you would never have to see me again, and now you are here, opening all the wounds I made you. You shouldn't do it, it's crazy. He looked up. I would not do it."But it's not about you, okay?" He tapped the table lightly. It's my life, respect my decision. It is a fact that to this day you live with my former husband, and if he makes you happy and you make him happy, I'm not going to get in the way. Nothing you have now is in danger. I don't want anything, I just pretend to be aware of what happened while I was trying to be a rational person again. I have waited a long time to do this. I have looked back, observing the present from a safety barrier, but not anymore. I got tired of all that. I wanted to see for myself if I would be able to have you around and not continue to hate you. I have been through many stages, but something inside of me tells me that I should continue to hate you because you deserve it, but there is nothing I can do about it. You can't even control it. All I'm asking is that you be strong and face it, that you don't run away. Be brave and assume what you did. Do not insist on looking elsewhere because that will not change anything. He paused. If you keep the past in a useless corner of your memory, that does not mean that it has ceased to exist. It will remain there until you decide to let it go. But don't you dare judge me for coming to see you, because of the three I was the only one who lost everything. I don't want your compassion, and if you were able to tell me the whole truth in the hospital, now it doesn't have to be any different. I don't want a different treatment. It is clear that we are still sisters, but I can no longer see you as such. However, I have decided to make a brief exception while I am here. No fighting, no more conflict. I just want to talk. Make sense of what is on my mind. She ruffled her hair. Give me what I need and I'll go where I came from. You won't have to hear from me again."I can't, Nora." She was deeply puzzled. You don't need any of this. You don't need to know what my life is like. You need to focus on yours and forget the rest."It's what I want the most, but you are my obsession." You will not disappear. You always appear in my dreams and run away when I open my eyes. Not now, you are flesh and blood, and I need your help. You are the only one who can do it. What good will it do me to go back and try to move on? I come to you because you are the origin. It is the most dangerous thing that I have done, but it was the only way to bury all that history that today does not allow me to advance as I would like.Angy shook her head over and over again. For her that would not help, it would not be the cure for Nora, if not quite the opposite, her annihilation. Did he want to suffer exactly the same as long ago?"Please ..."Using her most visceral instincts, Nora rolled up the sleeves of her jacket.-Remember this? He showed her the cuts on his wrists and forearms. It is already part of me. I tried again a second time, but it's over. I want to forget, but I have to know everything.Angy gave a little cry and put her hands to her mouth. He jumped to his feet, his face contorted."It's over," he whispered. This has been a mistake. You shouldn't have come. I will have caused you enough pain just by having me around and still you try to tell me that you want to know more. It can't be, I can't help you. His voice trembled. Come home, Nora.-Not."Please ..." "Angy, I'm not going to beg you." I have nothing to lose anymore. I have transformed, I am much stronger than you think. Don't underestimate me, don't try to protect me from reality. I know what there is. I've learned my lesson and you should do the same. Don't make the same mistakes. Do not ignore."I just can't understand you." You say you want to get on with your life but this will make it more difficult for you."That's not what I think.""What are you going to get anyway?" Do you really think this will help you?Nora let the air out."Yes," he said with crushing sincerity. Please don't run away. Do not run away. You've done it too many times already.Doubtful, Angy sat back down."You're doing yourself no favors, Nora."-Of course yes. Do not you see it?-Of course not. I can't, it's totally impossible.Nora closed her eyes and prayed for a little more patience. He thought he would find Angy tame and relatively easy to convince, but he was not. He did not allow himself to be bent."Calm down, Angy."-Is not easy. I don't get it yet."Well, do it at once." You are a grown woman.At that moment, Angy's cell phone started ringing inside her bag. He glanced at Nora, but she didn't mind his answering."Go ahead, answer."Perhaps grateful for it, Angy unzipped it and put her hand in roughly, searching for the phone that was ringing insistently. As he did so, and when he snapped his hand out to answer the call before it was cut off, something flew out onto the ground, but the only one who seemed to notice was Nora. He hid as well as he could and bent down to catch it. When he held it between his fingers, without actually looking at it so as not to arouse suspicion, he realized that it was a kind of paper, somewhat thicker than normal, of small dimensions. He figured it might be a photograph."Hi, Evan," Angy replied dryly. What do you want? He bit his lip as he listened to his interlocutor. Listen, now is not a good time. I'll call you later, okay? He hung up before getting an answer.Unable to take it anymore, Nora decided to act."You dropped this," he said, showing what did indeed appear to be a small photograph, holding it at eye level so Angy wouldn't have any doubts.Angy went pale, her eyes widening."Whose photo is it?"He had no reply."Can't you tell me?"His older sister gulped and, after thinking a bit, uttered a word."Nora…" "I think it would be too humiliating at this point to pretend like nothing had happened. He toyed with the image between his fingers without making full eye contact with it, glimpsing a few details that gave him an idea of who it might be. He's your son, right?Angy gulped. Her heart had raced wildly as she retrieved the photograph. He locked it in his palms, trying to hide it.-It's a girl.Nora nodded, feeling enormous curiosity. She kept her eyes on him. It was another woman. I wanted to know more.-I can see her? He suggested, holding out his hand. Show me.Angy hesitated. I knew it was not a good idea."Please," he insisted. It's the last thing I ask of you.In the end he had no choice but to give in. He held out the photograph for her to observe closely.Nora was pleasantly surprised; something he hadn't counted on. His anger and disappointment were instantly eclipsed. It was like seeing a little angel, with light brown hair, very alive, and intense blue eyes, a wonderful smile. His gesture was delicate, a delight. It was a girl who seemed taken from a dream. Perfect-Is beautiful. It truly was. Hehas— ”“ He has your same eyes, ”Angy completed.-How…? The question was obvious. He wanted to know her name, but the words fell into his mouth.Angy let out a sigh as he looked at her longingly."Her name is Nora."His heart seized on a sudden shock. Really? Could it be true? Did that tiny being bear his name?The knot in her stomach deepened.-Are you serious?His older sister slowly nodded her head.-Yes. He gave a brief smile. During the pregnancy, I did not want to know if it was a boy or a girl, and when she was born and I saw her for the first time, I was not able to find a better name. It reminded me so much of you when you were born…Nora had mixed feelings. She imagined the girl up close and a sense of strange fullness washed over her."What does he think?" He dared to ask. I mean the name. He agreed?"The truth is, yes," he admitted. At first he was surprised, but then he had no choice but to admit that it is a beautiful name…"A beautiful name for a beautiful girl."They were absolutely silent for a couple of minutes. It was a surreal experience, it made no sense after such a long absence. You could feel the ragged breathing of both, but at least there was no hostility, not the one there was at the time.Nora tried to return the small photograph but couldn't. Something was preventing it. She wanted to continue to contemplate this extraordinary being that, although she had been born through an encounter that turned out to be fateful for her, anyway that Nora on a small scale got rid of what her parents had done in the past."Can I have it?" He sketched, lifting the photograph between his fingers.Angy frowned at the question, but then nodded.-Clear.He looked at the image again with self-absorption, with veneration, as if deep down the damage could be repaired by looking into the intense blue eyes of this defenseless creature.His older sister cleared her throat."I'm trying to take in all this, and I want to be of help." If there's anything you want to say, anything about what you just saw, I assure you, you have every right in the world, ”Angy urged. You've done a lot coming here, and I'm not going to be the one stopping you from asking all the questions you need to ask.Nora sighed."Do you know I exist?"Angy hesitated before answering.-Yes. He glanced at the photograph. Sometimes he doesn't remember exactly, but he knows who you are. I have told him about you. Also from mom and dad.Nora carefully tucked the photograph into her pants pocket."What do you know about them?"-Nothing. She bit her lip anxiously. Just their names and where they live. I didn't want him to know too much so he wouldn't interfere with…"Why are you doing this?" He snapped, cutting her off. Why do you hide and let your daughter do it too? She felt unexpectedly energized, thinking of that little angel. It doesn't deserve to grow up… isolated. They don't even know. I never told him. She ruffled her hair. They have the right to know.Angy was saddened, shrinking herself."Yes, of course they have to know, but since I left, they haven't wanted to know anything more about me." How could he have told them something like that without expecting it to get even more complicated?Nora put her hands around her neck. He no longer suffered as before, but remembering was already quite an odyssey."I don't want it to sound arrogant, but it's my decision," he continued, "and I keep in mind that one day they have to know, but not today." Not until she's grown up enough to be able to understand everything that happened, because I'm not cheating on her. I don't want to make that same mistake with my own daughter."But they're missing all of this," Nora growled. They have no idea that they are grandparents, and meanwhile there is a girl who is developing, who is understanding what life is like ... She should not grow up apart from her family."Dorian…" His face fell silent as he accidentally pronounced that name that had hurt Nora so much. His father and I are his family."You know what I mean." Is not sufficient.Angy intertwined her nervous fingers."Do you think they would forgive me for keeping such news from them for so long?""Listen, all I know is that things won't get any better if you decide to let more time go by." -He frowned-. You know mom; you know how much he loves children. Do you know how much good you could do for her by telling her that she has a granddaughter?"Yes, but I also know all the pain it could cause by breaking the news to her.""Then you have to choose."Angy looked away."I already did, and for the moment I prefer they continue not knowing." I'll make a decision when the time comes."If you want my advice, I suggest you don't let them find out on their own." It is better to accept the facts as they are. He sank into his seat. I did.They both knew he was right, but going from theory to practice was not easy.Nora massaged her temples, visibly nervous.Angy leaned over her.-What happen?"Nothing, it's just…"Angy took the courage to stroke his hand. It was something unexpected, that minimal contact after so much.이 작품을 무료로 읽으실 수 있습니다
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I couldn't believe it, but there it was. He had tried in every possible way but it had been useless to resist; Those green eyes were watching him closely, and Dorian felt his pulse race. Each heartbeat hit his chest with the force of a hurricane, and he silently asked her not to pull away from him again. He loved her, of that he was sure. Despite the distance, he had never stopped loving her; the imprint she had left on her soul had been so great that not a lifetime would have been enough to forget her. So there she was, silence hanging from her thin lips. He couldn't hide it anymore. He spent his days in Nora's company, but he knew that would never be enough; He could never give her in fifty years what Angela could give her in a matter of days. She had been the first and only woman he had lost his mind for, and now he wasn't sure he had regained it. She felt very close, perhaps too close. There was nothi
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That day of good weather the island was full. Nora had decided to go visit her mother; It was her day off, and since Dorian was working she didn't want to be left alone in that gigantic house, so she showed up without warning. However, that turned out to be no problem for Julia, who had not stopped smiling since her young daughter was home, having coffee in the living room."It's weird not being around," Nora sobbed.-Tell me. Everything is too quiet.
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