Bab 0005

A week, one week after that dreadful night for both, Aaron and Grace. In which Aaron didn't see Grace at all. She locked herself in a guest room and never came out of it. Only when she feel Aaron is not at home or when she needs to made a food for her child . She never talk or see Aaron.

And Aaron always knock on her door or stays there the whole night leaning against the side wall of the door sitting at floor and just muttering loads of apologies again and again. Asking for forgiviness and begging for a chance. Tears leaving his eyes wetting the floor with its drops making a tiny pool of their own.

Because he can't bear the pain and saddness that's coming from their bond, from Grace. He already have his own pain and guilt that's hard to handle and feeling what Grace is feeling is doubling the regret.

Grace never let him involve in a bond, because he also wasn't interested first but now when Grace open up the bond , everything came like a landslide and forcing him in it's fall under it, saffocating him to the core he can't seems to breath normally.

But he deserved it.

He always says himself when he feels it's too much to handle. He deserve every fucking pain he gave to his precious Grace. He deserved it after making him gone through alot. He deserve Grace ignorance and her cold attitude towards him, he deserve it when Grace never reply to his pleading through their bond, he deserve it that Grace is not accepting his apologies.

What did he thought? That he will say sorry after all that he did to Grace and Grace will jump on his arms and forgive him? How delusional he was to think he even deserve an apology.

His pride and ego never let him see through his actions. He never see how much Grace was going through and how much he needed her. He even fucking denied to please her on her first heat! how much it would've effect her. What was he thinking?! she was hisr Mate she must have needed him so much and he became so heartless that he refused to hear her whimpers in their bond. He fucking blocked her from invading his mind because he was doing some useless project?! Why?!

Now what?! Where is his pride ?! Where is the ego?! He is fucking begging for forgiveness from the Mate. Why did he even do that? It wasn't Grace's fault. There was no fault of her. It was his own fault that he thought about his past and let this play with his mind. He was so into his past that he forgot to live in a present! He was so hurt from his past that he didn't see any future with Grace. He was living in a past and it's his fault.

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Aaron stood up from the floor infront of the room Grace is staying more like locking himself. He was yet again pleading Grace to open the door but that didn't happen. It was mid-night now he for a week was spending his night at the door of Grace. He atleast feel her presence and that's enough for him to be contented for now. So he always sleep there till morning came.

He was feels thirsty and can't sleep because of the hard floor like everynight and the pain in his chest won't let him close his eyes because he always sees the hurt and pain face of Grace which ended up making him to another crying mess of regret.

He went into the bathroom first to wash his tear stain face, he look up to his reflection and sees his blood shot eyes filled with dullness and sadness. He sigh and wipe his face, can't see his own reflection for that long and went towards the kitchen to drink the water. His throat dried as hell and a lump never leave his thraot. He painfully gulped down the water in his throat.

When he hear the door creaked. His eyes instantly shot up. He heard the creaked of someone stepping on the stairs.

Grace.

She must have felt that Aaron is gone to his room finally, so she came out of the room. But why she's going upstairs? Aaron slowly follow her to see Grace was entering their babys room, Asher.

Aaron's room well their room but since Grace is not staying. Anyways, their room is right by their baby side so that's why Grace didn't notice the scent that's lingering. she thought Aaron is in his room.

He reached the door that was slightly open to see Grace was sitting by their baby sleeping small figure, Caressing his hair and smiling faintly.

Grace kissed babys forehead softly, lovingly caressing his cheeks and hair. Looking at his face longingly and adoringly.

"Mama loves you so much, my sunflower" she whispered almost unadioubly but Aaron heard it, his scenses are higher than anyone.

Grace kissed his cheeks, softly pecking his nose. Asher stir in his sleep but lean into the warm hand sighing in relief and contentment. Grace smile happily seeing his adorable baby loving her warmth. She longs to hold him tightly in her arms without scaring his sunflower.

"I'm sorry baby, I'm such bad mama to you. Forgive your mama, she's very sorry." She got tears in her eyes. She wants to tell her baby how much she loves him. How much her heart longs to hold him. To kiss him and cuddle him.

"Please don't be scared of m-me, mama loves you" she cried silently kissing her pups little hands lovingly then placing it on hers own teary cheek.

Aaron walk away from there, wiping the tear that form in his eyes. He will give Grace what she wants, what she longed for. Their child.

Maybe then some of his regret went down, even a little bit is fine. It's too much. Won't go away even he beg for forgiveness all his life.