chapter 6

I sit back on the couch uneasy. Moments later Jason comes out and we are ready to start playing. By this time. My brother is drunk and so is Jess. They have obviously gotten into the shooters. “okay so whose going first…” “Jess, Truth or dare…” “Truth…” “right, this is going to be hard because I know everything about you…” “okay then I change it to dare… Just for you…” “Okay strip down to your undies and run down the street.” With that she did it, she striped down having her bra and pantie on and ran down the street.. My brothers eyes were starting to close. He was getting so drunk, he was drinking whiskey clean. “Hey Dipshit, are you okay?” “Sure..” He slurred. Jess arrived back, putting her pajamas back on. “Your turn…” She says now sobered up a little. “I dare you to make out with Jason…” “really, I didn’t even say truth or dare?” “Yeah but you dared me so make out with Jason for 10 seconds…” My brother wasn’t really all there so he wasn’t going to say anything. Jason held up his hand to stop me before I could even start. “Come on Jace its only a game…” Jess saidk. I didn’t feel right doing this because he had a girlfriend but just to ease Jess, for 10 seconds, I would… It wasn’t like I haven’t kissed him before, although Dylan doesn’t know that. He turns his head towards me, I lean in and so does he, I lean a little closer, until he catches me with his lips. He cups my face. I tug my fingers through his hair, I feel my body move onto him, as I saddle him. Its like my body is moving by itself, me, having no control over it, He enters my mouth, and I moan softly as I grind down on him. His lips are soft, and his tongue plays games with mine, the electricity between us, yearning for each other, our bodies are speaking for each other, I feel his fingers traces lines up and down my back, forgetting where we were. I stifle a moan, but he still hears it. I feel his shaft rise as I grind slowly against him. “Um Your ten seconds were over like 5 minutes ago guys…” I hear Jess, being pulled out of my orgasmic state of mind that Jason has gotten me in. I pull away, and unsaddle myself, leaving me feel empty and embarrassed. I look at my brother, Whose eyes look like they are going to pop out of his head staring at us. He bursts into laughter, he gets up and he makes his way to his room. I look back to Jason but his gone. He is no longer here. God this is chaos. Jess grins at me. “I’m going to bed love…I will see you in the morning.” I nod and give her a wave. I am so embarrassed. I get up and go to the kitchen, getting the food that Jason got me from burger king and making my way back to the couch. When I get back, I notice Jason is back, Lying on the couch he has his Pillow and a blanket. “why are you here?” I ask. “ well you cant lie on the couch and sleep, might as well go and lie in my bed…” he says emotionless. “what is your problem Jason! I’ve had it with you sulking. What is it!” I lose it with him. I’m done with him, I’ve never seen him like this before. “it's all about you Oakley. The world doesn’t revolve around you, you know.” He says once again with that emotionless shit.   “I just want to slap you! Who says the world revolves around me Jason!” I say it in a soft yell. He stands at attention within seconds, up in my face. I’m still chewing my food, But I put it down because I have a sudden loss of appetite. His still standing in my face, I’m looking up at him because he is much taller than I am. “Jason I don’t know if you know me? you sound like you don’t… But I don’t really care what you think. I honestly am done with this. Your sulking, your tantrums. You're not my brother. I’m not your responsibility. In case you have forgotten, let me remind how you fucked me and then hadn’t spoken to me for 12 years. Honestly if you feel the world revolves around me. Then you can keep your damn stupid opinion to yourself. No one asked you to be around me…So cut the crap.” I poke him in his chest the last four words of my sentence he is so close to me I can smell his cologne. His worn the same smell since high school. This strong earthy, musk smell. Draws me closer to him wanting to rub my face all over him. I put some distance between us, just breathing in natural air, and not his scent. I turn to him now worried this isn’t like Jason it isn’t him. He always cared for me, why all the sudden change,  did I make like the world revolved around me? I’ve been back for like a day, and my parents are divorce which is a surprise. It would have been better if I was in Ireland and I found out. I wouldn’t have to bring so many people into it, making it seem like the world revolves around me. I’m pacing up and down, I have my hand on my chin. We haven’t spoken, he just stand there and looks at me “Why are you so angry Jace? I want to know. I need to know…” “because you are going on a date next week with Nick. Your brother gave a go ahead, Why couldn’t he give me the go ahead. I have been aching to touch you, to feel you again. I thought that’s what you wanted, we could never of had a long distance relationship, without anyone knowing. I am just angry, I’ve never wanted to hurt you. Lee…” “so you act up because you never wanted to hurt me?” “Dylan still feels I shouldn’t be allowed to be with you… He feels I will be a good buddy that will never do that.” “Jace, Dylan thinks you are hopelessly in love with Ashley, and he saw an opportunity with Nick because Nick has never been as close to me as you have. He sees you as also being my brother. It's okay for us not to be in a relationship. I mean, I suppose I will have to accept you as my step, Brother in law. I mean what choice do I actually have… Any way you should be angry with Dylan about that… Not me” He sits on the couch again. I stand in front of him as he chuckles, at my ‘step brother in law joke’. “can I have you? When you sat in my office and I laid my eyes on you for the very first time in so many years, my heart dropped to my stomach, and I couldn't resist you.” “Hush now, It's forbidden waters that. We can’t do anything inappropriate because you just don’t feel that way for me anymore… We may have had a connection back in the day but Jace… Come on, we cant lead into that, we are no longer kids. I don’t like sharing, you're with Ashley. I’m going back to Ireland, there is just too much heart break. I am lusting for you, that’s for damn sure. Back if we could turn back time…” I smile. He pats the seat next to him… I go and sit with him he wraps his arm over my shoulder I tuck my legs in, on the couch. We sit watching some music videos, before he turns his head slightly to me… “you know you're right…” “About what?” “It’s forbidden waters…” He pauses, and breaths slowly out, “But I’m not afraid to swim in it…” with that he leaned in.. his lips close to my again. His scent overpowers me once again, and I’m engulfed in him. He kisses me, the heat seething through my skin as his fingers trace my neck. He lifts me bridal style to his room, lays me softly on the bed, closes and locks the bedroom door.