chapter 29

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Without me-halsey .

Be kind-Halsey

How do you sleep -Sam smith.

I think I'm too young to be graduating from secondary school at the age of fifteen . But here I am graduating from secondary school. I'm  the youngest In my set. Most of my age mates are in two years behind me.

"Babe.  What are you thinking  about?" My boyfriend asked me as he wrapped his arms around my waist  and placed a kiss on my cheek in  the hallway.

Yeah. You guessed right.  George is my boyfriend.

"I was thinking of how hard it will be waiting for three years to enter the university . When you and Jane will be halfway done with university.

"I'll still love you. "He remarks and  I  can't help but notice the dryness behind them.

I lean and kiss him slowly.  He accepts it slowly .

"Ahem." Someone  coughs behind us and we disengage to see Jane smiling nervously.

"Hey. I love your gown." I tell her as I pull her in for a hug.

"Yours too ." She tells me.

I notice the way Jane looked at George and a look of ...hurt and betrayal ?

We walk to the hall in silence and  the tension between Jane and George is much. Ever since, I had told Jane George had asked me out. She had been acting weird and she seemed kind of nice than she had been before. She even asked questions about me and George not even about my mom again. But they are always  acting like as if they are keeping something from me.

The boring graduation ceremony had finished and it was now time for the party. Jane and George are nowhere to be found.

"Has anyone seen Jane and George?" I ask a couple of my mates who were dancing.

"Isn't Jane supposed to be your best friend and George your boyfriend ?" A classmate of mine slurs.

"Yeah." I say and she bursts into laughter.

This one is drunk.

"Check them on the roof ." She says and I should have mentally prepared myself for  what I was going to see.

Right there on the edge of the roof is George standing in between Jane's legs and they are entangled in a really passionate kiss. I don't miss the way Thier bodies move in sync like they are meant to be .

I gasp and they notice me standing there with no emotions.

"Fuck." George says.

"Fuck what? My best friend? "I ask him angrily moving towards them.

"I really didn't want you to find out like this." He says frustrated.

"Oh. So you wanted me to find out over a  candle lit dinner. While my friends knew about it and make fun of me. "I ask referring to the drunk girl downstairs.

"Look. Sam. We are in love." Jane says and crosses her legs still perched on the edge of the roof.

"Fuck that love." I say angrily and move towards her before I  know what is happening.  I'm  pushing her down a five storey building.

Her screams brings me out to reality and I gasp.

"What the fuck did you do that for?" George asks as he pushes me against the wall and punches me so hard.

He hit me.

I hear a thud and he rushes out to go downstairs and help Jane.

Fuck it.

I look over the  balcony and I see that the paramedics and the police are here.

Police?  Fuck no . no . no.

I need to get out of here.

The door opens and two police men come in with George.

"There she is ." He says pointing to me.

"Young lady .you are under arrest.  You have every right to remain silent or whatever you say would be used against you in the court of law." The stupid policeman says and I stand up wiping my bloody nose where George  had punched me. The police man handcuffs me and leads me downstairs.  The party had stopped and  people were staring at me like I was the devil myself. I scowl at them and I'm met with a terrible slap on my already bleeding face.

"You monster!!!" My mom's voice cuts through me.

"Mom." I call.

"Don't call me that . You devil. If that poor girl dies.  What will  I  do?" She asks.

"I"? I ask her thinking she has managed to put me and her in the same shoes.

"Yes. The daughter of a celebrity pushes her friend of the roof because of a boy ?" She explains.

Spoke to soon.

"How will that look on my image? "She asks and I snap.

"Shut it!!!" I scream exasperatedly and she recoils.

"Take me away please." I tell the police man .

PRESENT TIME

"Thats how I walked away from that life ." I tell my mom just as soon as she  finishes nursing my wounds.

"Wow." She says .

"At Juvie  . I wasted my life  there. Getting into fights ,sleeping with boys, drinking and doing whatever a juvenile did.  I even took marijuana once," I stop when she gasps. "But,I didn't get hooked like many of my friends. I just wanted to feel among,  Joy insisted it wasn't necessary, but I loved and enjoyed that feeling. She was the one that made me happy. Though I never smiled or showed her any expression.  I loved her."

"Sam. That's the past now.  There is a new life in front of you. You can fall in love again. Show some emotions, make friends and all that ,but none of this happening is your fault ." She says .

I'm too far gone. I don't want to fall in love again or show emotions to anyone apart from you.

I don't say this out of course. Instead I stand up and she takes it as her cue to leave.

I walk into the bathroom and take a long shower. On my way out , I catch a glimpse of my self in the mirror and I stop to search.

Eleven years ago.  If anyone had told me . I would be this sad,lonely and dejected girl. I would have laughed my ass out.

But, here am I standing here looking at my self and deleting all those fantasies I had when I was a child.

All those romantic letters.  I wrote when I was six in my diary . The way I wrote about how my dream man would propose to me and all that.  Perhaps, all that is not for me.

I sigh and go to bed.

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The next morning, which was a Tuesday,  I wake up by six thirty.  I don't know how I managed to do it ,but I made breakfast for myself and the family , leaving the house by seven,before mom  came downstairs.

I trudge to school and stop for coffee at a coffee shop, even though I had orange juice before leaving the house.

I get to school by seven forty five.  I stand by my locker and watch people interact with their friends.  I sigh and bring out a journal I bought earlier on my way to school and start writing in it to while away time. The bell rings and I take my books and walk to class.

I think I got lost ,because I didn't see any class that was having maths at the moment.

"Stop. Please just stop. I'll do your homework for you okay," a timid voice says at the end of the hallway.

The other person growls and I hear a smash probably someone being smashed into a locker a whimper follows.

My blood begins to boil and I start running towards the sound.

I stop when a see a huge muscular guy towering above a smaller guy.

This is what I hate most and this is what me and joy lived for and fought against.

"What the fuck do you think you are doing? "I ask the muscular guy.

He looks at me and smiles.

" what the heck is a model like you going to do?"

"This." I say and slam him into the locker.

I may look very thin with long legs and such a big and uncontrollable ass,but an angry me is something you don't want to see.

I give him a nasty punch. Even though my knuckles were still healingfrom yesterday .

"In your life, never ever bully again, " I spit in my Nigerian accent.

"Whoa. Girl calm down." He says with a smirk and that aggregates me the more. I hit him again and blood oozes from his mouth staining my bandaged hands .

"What is happening here?" A voice says and I release the guy from the locker. I turn around and see Mason staring at me like I've grown two  heads.

"Nothing ." I tell Mason and walk away fast.

Hello,

So hope I tried with the sad part. For those of you who have been reading and voting.  Thanks a lot. Please also comment.  It makes me happy to see that you are enjoying the book.

Please.  If you have any works you want me to read. Don't hesitate to tell me.Or songs I could use recommend them.

We are all in this together.

Bye.

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