chapter 3

“FUCK! What am I supposed to do? I’m going to be his Beta for fuck’s sake and he’s one of my best friends. ” Luke’s voice is shaking and I know he wants to hide immediately. Alpha’s are known to be possessive of their mates and we witnessed last night what Colin's jealousy is like.

“It’s not like he isn’t with someone right now, right? Why should he care.” Maybe I can convince myself as well. Probably not, but it is worth a shot.

I open the door overly confident and slightly annoyed. Colin is standing there looking extremely nervous and unsure of why he is at my door. He freezes as his eyes find my nipples. They are still so hard that they are practically poking holes through my t-shirt. His eyes dart to my panties and up to my eyes which are now very wide. His eyes finally land on Luke standing behind me who I am positive is as pale as a ghost. I know he can smell my arousal and I am sure he is not stupid about what was just taking place. Luke still has a boner and we are both breathing quite heavily from our make out session and the fear of being killed is only making it worse. A very angry growl leaves Colin's throat and his fists clench tightly. His body stiffens and his eyes fixate themselves onto mine daring me with his Alpha glare to look away.

“Get out now, Luke. Before I kill you.” He demanded in his Alpha tone while still staring daggers at me.

“Dude, I know your going to be Alpha but there is no reason to treat Ellie or me like this.” Luke’s voice is very soft sounds like he is trying to submit slightly in surrender. He knows better than to challenge Colin and will respect him, but he is equally protective of me.

“We’ll talk about it later Luke, GET OUT. Before I can’t control myself and do something we all regret.” Colin is now growling his words through gritted teeth while still keeping eye contact with me. We all know if he looked at Luke he may actually rip his head off.

Luke whispers to me that he’ll call me later which earns him a disapproving growl from Colin. Luke finally slips past Colin and quickly runs out of my room.

As soon as the door closes I throw my hands in the air and grunt as loudly as possible.

“UGH!! I don’t get you Colin! Why are you treating me like this? It is so confusing and completely unfair to me. It’s not like I told the Moon Goddess to pair us or something!” I yell at him a little too loudly while stomping towards the bathroom and slamming the door. I lock it, turn around so my back is now against it and I slide down to the floor.

When I am finally on the ground I wrap my arms around my knees and feel the door vibrate. Colin hits the door again with his fists and sighs loudly. Not in aggression, but in frustration.

“Ellie it’s complicated. You know Tori and I have been together for 4 years. It's hard to just break up with her our senior year because of a mate bond. We have been in love for years. How can I just throw that all away. It would crush her completely, she hasn't found her mate yet. I'm not a jerk. I know what I did yesterday was wrong, but you have to see it from my side too.” His voice is back to regular with a sweet and caring undertone which is completely opposite from two minutes ago when he was talking to Luke.

Nonetheless, my heart is practically being ripped and torn apart piece by piece with every word he is saying.

“Just reject me then Colin, please. Save me from the hurt of watching you two together.” The words leaving my mouth cause a sudden pain to course through my heart and I start to sob quietly into my knees.

“What?! Of course not Ellie! Why would you even suggest that?” I can feel the pain in his voice as well from what I just said.

I can’t bring myself to say anything or to even stop crying. Instead, I curl myself even further into a ball. I am unable to control the tears or the volume of my sobs. He may not have rejected me, but my heart is reacting like he did.

I hear a loud exhale and then the door moves like he just backed away from it.

“Look, I know this sucks. I really am sorry. If I wasn’t with Tori it would be completely different. I will figure out a way to break up with her. Just give me time.” I can hear his footsteps and then my door closes. Why is this happening to me? I sit curled up on my bathroom floor for what feels like an eternity, just crying. It’s moments like these I am so thankful I got a single room. Having a roommate right now would suck.

The rest of Sunday has been awful and long, like a bad nightmare. I have stayed cooped up in my room all day texting the girls. I didn’t tell them about anything that happened with Luke or Colin and want it to stay that way. Luke has sent me a few texts today but I don’t know what to say to him. So I haven’t responded. Heather just text me that the pack house movie theater is playing a certain movie in about 45 minutes. Her and Amber are going and they are pretty much begging me to go. I reluctantly just told her yes.

The movie playing is all about singing A Capello and happens to be my favorite movie. I know the girls probably convinced someone in charge to play it for them in order to get me out of my funk. I showered and left my hair down in brushed out curls because Amber said I should so why not. I put on my very short comfy pajama shorts that almost showed the bottom of my butt cheeks and a cropped Marilyn Monroe t-shirt. After applying some neutral makeup, I'm ready to go. Maybe I’ll find a guy tonight that will make Colin jealous. It could be fun.