Devastation 8

Nicholai POV

We were on my private plane headed back to New York when Cole started making fun of me and Cassie. I had Cassie seated on my lap my arms wrap around me.

"So how do you feel about introducing Cassandra a.k.a your angel to your family?" Cole ask.

"Knock it off, jerk!" I hissed.

"Okay, but Cassie how do you feel about meeting Nicholai's family."

"It was okay. I mean they were nice." Cassie said smiling at Cole.

"Nice! That's all you can came out with after meeting your in-laws." Cole said laughing. "Seriously?"

"Did you introduce Roxy to your family yet. I don't think so because you do not have the balls to do it." I countered.

"Well, unlike you two we plan to take things slowly. We even have a normal relationship. I'll introduce her to my parents next week." Cole said.

"We do have a relationship. We just don't have a term for it." Cassie said annoyingly.

"Stop it, Cole. You're not being funny. Cassandra is my girl friend. Right, angel?" I kissed her cheeks.

"I am?" She stared at me. "Really? You're just saying that but you don't really mean it." She stood up and sat next to Gabby. "You don't want a girlfriend."

"That's true! You hated the idea of being attached to anyone." Jake added.

"So you want my bestie now Mr. Frankford. Seriously?" Gabby said.

"You are very handsome indeed, Nicholai. But give my babe a break." Matt butted in. "Just because you're hot you can't just snap your fingers and order Cassie to be your girl friend. That's not how it works."

"You have to court her properly." Roxy added.

"Guys, please stop. I don't need this. Let him do what he likes." Cassie said.

"Follow me. Lets talk." I said.

We walked to the rear end of the plane where the bedroom is. I want things to be in order between the two of us. I want to make things clear.

"So, what do you want to say?" She looked at me seriously.

"Angel, be my girl friend."

"Why?" She said biting her lips.

"Because I want you. I like being with you. I wanted to start a new chapter of our life together." I admitted.

"You want a real relationship? You want us to be officially together?" She asked in disbelief. I can't blame her. We did started our relationship on the wrong foot.

"Yes. If you want that too." I touch her cheeks. "Angel, all I know is I want you. I'm confused with what I'm feeling for you. But I don't want to lose you."

"Me too. The only difference is I am certain that I love you." She held my face and stare at me. "I love you."

"I like you. I want you. Would that be good for now  for you to be officially mine?"

I am being selfish. She just admitted she loves me but I can't say the words back. I wanted her to belong to me but I can't even give her any assurance that I can love her back.

My heart belonged to Amanda and I can't offer it to my angel. I can give her the world but not my heart yet...

Cassie POV

He just asked me to be with him officially. I would be a hypocrite if I say I don't want to be with him. But not hearing him say that he loves me too hurt. He was saying the words I wanted to hear but not what I needed.

Deep down inside I needed to hear him say that he loves me..

"Angel, please say something."

"I already said what I needed to say, Nicholai. I love you." I kiss his lips. "I would be honored to be your girl friend."

The moment the words was out my mouth he lifted me and spin me around. He carried me where the other were at.

"Guys, I'd like you all to know that I now have a girl friend." He said proudly.

"What? Seriously babe you just said yes to him without having him court you." Matt can't hide his disappointment.

"Matt, I have been living in with him for months now. If I said no and still live with him that would be ridiculous." I said laughing. "Besides it's about time I get the bragging rights that I have a billionaire boyfriend."

"Well, congratulations you two. When is the wedding?" Gabby ask.

"We haven't plan that far ahead yet we just want to fîgure out where our new set up will take us. Right angel?"

"Yap, we will try to do that, Nicky." She teased.

"Don't call me that."

"So since you two are officially together now. Does this mean you settle the Amanda thing?" Roxy asked.

"No, we are not going to talk about her." I said. "I'm not interested."

"That's right we will not talk about her. She's in the past."

The next weeks were like a dream. Nicholai was a perfect boyfriend. He was very sweet, caring, possessive. He is a prince charming straight out from a fairy tale.

He always visit me at my office whenever he wants. He sends flowers everyday to my office which I really think is too much. We have dinner dates, watch movies, go to events. We practically were inseperable. We spend time together all the time.

"You're glowing." Gabby teased me as we two were eating pizza at their house.

"That's because I'm in love."

"You certainly are, best." She said laughing. "So did he finally said he loves you too."

"No, but I honestly don't care if he doesn't tell me. As long as he makes me feel loved. You know what they say actions speak louder than words."

"Yes, that's true. But not to rain on your parade best. I personally like to hear the words being said to me as much as I love my husband making love to me." She said sarcasticly.

"True but I don't really care anymore. I'm just happy and I love him."

"Who are you two talking about?" Jake ask walking in with Cole and Nicholai.

"Just between me and my best friend." Gabby said.

"Hello, angel." He kissed me on my lips and winked at me.

"Where's Roxy?" Gabby ask.

"She's at the hospital." Cole replied.

"Okay. Anyway, what are you guys doing here? I mean best told me we got the house to ourselves." I said.

"Well, we are here to celebrate." Jake said happily. "You haven't told her?"

"Not yet." Gabby said. "Did you tell them?"

"Tell us what exactly?" I ask intrigued.

"Well, we are having a baby." The both said at the same time.

We were so happy about the news. Apparently my bestie was already 6 weeks pregnant. We can't hide our excitement for the couple. The moment we were home.

"I'm so happy for Gabby and Jake."

"Me, too." Nicholai said embracing me. "Angel, do you want kids?"

"Of course. But not yet." I look at him and he smiled at me. "I mean not until I'm ready."

"Okay. But we can have fun practicing." He said then started to trail kisses down my neck while undressing me.

"Uh...huh. I'll love that." I said. "I love you Nicholai." He just continued to undress me and kept touching and kissing me. "Hey, I said I love you."

"I heard you the first time, angel." He said huskily. "I need you now."

I gave in and made love to him. It hurts apparently Gabby was right hearing him say he loves me too matters. I can lie to everyone that I don't need to hear him say it but I can't lie to myself. I needed to hear that he loves me.

What is holding him back from telling me he loves me... Or does he even really love me... Or just wanted me to be with him?