chapter 26

Some people say love is complex. A mix of emotions, behaviours and belief associated with strong feelings of affection, protectiveness, warmth and respect for another person…

I wish I could do this but because of this love, I also could not do this. I just wanted to love but I did not know love would lead me the way where I would become his innocent wife.

“Harsha! Open the door. Are you still sleeping?”Harsha heard a knock on the door. She was hearing it for a long time, but she was not doing anything. She was only sleeping on her bed. But he was continuously shouting her name as the world was going to end. Opened her eyes. 

She opened her eyes and instantly looked at the window. Direct sunlight was coming promptly. And her alarm is also on the door that is knocking nonstop. She advised him not to come to her house but he daily comes to bother her and he never goes until she opens the door.

He is Yash. he is Harsha’s neighbour and every morning he comes to wake her up. She does not open the door for him, but he keeps asking for the door until she opens it and leaves when he wakes her up. 

She got up from the bed and instantly started to walk towards the door. Harsha stood near the door, but she was thinking ten times before opening it because the same incident happens to her when she opens the door. But still, she has to open the door because Yash is too stubborn. Harsha gently opened the door for him, and he completely entered at a panther speed.

“Why the hell were you not opening the door?” he shouted at her and she was ignoring him. She looked at the outside of the door and turned back. No one was there now. She looked at the watch, and Harsha’s eyes widened due to shock. It was 8.30 am!!!

She is doomed today. She is going to be late for work. And now he would intentionally lecture her. But Harsha acts normal in front of him so that he would leave soon. She turns towards him.

“I was sleeping,” Harsha simply said to Yash and he got angrier.

“Absolutely! I can see you were sleeping peacefully like a pig and you were not aware that I was knocking on the door for half an hour. Why the hell were you sleeping so long? Don’t you remember you have to work?”He shouted fiercely at her and now Harsha understood that he is not going to stop. She was intentionally not opening the door, and he also knows about this but he shamelessly comes daily. 

“Actually I am not feeling good today,” Harsha thought to pull some acting in front of him to prevent herself. She merely wanted her to leave alone because she naturally knew what she had to face trouble in a few minutes. But as Yash heard about this, he panicked.

“What!!! You are not feeling good. Why? What happened?” he said and started to touch her cheeks and forehead. He was looking very worried, and his eyes and voice suddenly changed. Now Harsha thought that she should not have played with him. She just wanted him to leave soon. 

“Yes I…” as she was about to confess to him the truth that she was only acting before that he scooped her in his arms and kept her on the bed. He was still caressing her. She separated his hand from her body and sat away from him.

“I am upset, I was scolding you. I was just concerned about you. As you were not opening the door. I was genuinely thinking if something happened to you,” Yash said, looking extremely sad and worried. Harsha looked at his face and understood he again started. 

“Yash, I was not thoughtful. I just said that I wasn't feeling good but I am fit and fine. I was joking with you,” Harsha said to him and Yash grasped her hand again.

“It is pleasant if it is a joke. I am delighted you are not ill. Or what I will do if something happens to you,” Yash said to her and showed too much love towards her and as Harsha heard him, she tried to pull her hand away from him.

“Yash… please don’t talk like this,” Harsha said, but Yash gently pulled her hand more towards himself. She moved away from him more. Yash saw her doing this, and he was annoyed by her behaviour. He moved closer to her. 

“Why? Why should I not talk about this? You equally know I admire you. I love you!”Yash said and as Harsha heard him, she jerked her hand away from him and got up from the bed. She did not look back at him. 

“Yash! Please stop. I told you we are just friends and nothing more than that. Why don’t you understand?”Harsha said and tried to go away from there but Yash got up from the bed and blocked her path. 

“Why Harsha? I love you. Then why can’t you love me?”Yash asked her and at that time, a woman entered Harsha's house and saw Yash was gripping Harsha’s hand.

“You know the specific reason,” Harsha said looking at the woman who just entered. She was wearing an expensive suit. Irritability and anger were evident in the face. Harsha knew she was going to come to her house. 

“What are you doing in the house of this ill-fated girl? she shouted on Yash and slammed the door in fierce anger. She entered her house and pulled Yash away from Harsha and pushed her violently. 

“How many times do I have to tell you, stay away from her? she shouted at Yash and pulled him back from Harsha. She gave her a cunning and disgusting look to her. Yash was not able to say anything to her mother. Conceivably he did not try or dare. He was standing behind his mother and did not say anything. Harsha saw his cowardly behaviour and got angry. 

“Yash please go away from here,” Harsha said to him as his mother heard this. she slapped Harsha and carefully wiped her rosy palm which she cruelly slapped her. Harsha endured a burning pain on her rosy cheeks and instantly closed her innocent eyes tightly. It was extremely sore.

“You bitch. You call my son every time in your house and act innocent in front of me. We all know what type of girl you are,” she insulted her and Harsha looked at her.

“No, I did not call Yash here. I never call him. He is the one who always comes here. if you do not believe, ask him,” Harsha said to her and she looked at his son who was not daring to say anything to his mother. 

“We all know what type of girl you are. You are fondly dreaming of properly marrying my beloved son,” she said and came towards Harsha with a dirty smile. Harsha looked at Yash. It means he said to his mother that he wants to marry Harsha and his mother is thinking that she is the one who provoked Yash to marry him. 

“No, I do not want to marry your son,” Harsha directly denied this. She was shocked to hear her. She was not expecting that she would say something like this. As that woman heard Harsha she held her arm tightly and gave her too much pain in her arm. He smirked to look at her painful expression. 

“It is good if you are telling the truth. Because clever girls like you, are not marriage materials. You only look good on the local road. Why don’t you leave the house and live with other whores? After all, you have no one, so they can be your good partners,” his mother said to her with a smirk on her face and looked at her from top to bottom. Harsha was only just hearing her silently and looked thoughtfully at Yash.

His beloved mother was humiliating her and he was only standing behind her without justly stating anything. This is his sincere love, which he was talking about. He instantly lowered his eyes and did not dare to look at Harsha. She could not quite understand what type of love it is who can not speak up for her. He does not want to stop his mother. Well, she was not expecting this from him.

She has recognized his coward nature before too.

“Don’t look at my son with those eyes. You monstrous, ill-fated bitch. You not only look disgusting, but you possess a wicked heart too. You are trying to capture my son for money,” She said to Harsha. Yash was a very rich person in this area and because of this, her mother was very proud. But now it was enough. Harsha jerked her hand away from her and said to her.

“I humbly request you please go away from my house with your beloved son,” Harsha said, and His mothers instantly pushed Harsha and she fell on the ground. She fell hard on the ground. But still, Yash did not say anything to his mother. 

“Who eagerly wants to come into your house? You are the one who invites innocent men into your house. If I saw my son around you then I will burn your one-room home or should I say I will burn you. As you know how heartless I am,” She said to Harsha. She clutched Yash’s hand and walked away from there.

But suddenly she stopped and came to her again. She slapped her again and Harsha’s eyes were full of tears. 

“I heard from Yash, you think that someone would come in your life one day. he would love you and care for you. Like really? How dare you think about this? Slut like you deserve nothing. Remember you are a mistake which God made and throw between us and forget. Do not know why after getting too much insult, abuse, you are still living shamelessly. You should just die! Do you understand?” She said and pushed her away.

Harsha was looking at both of them going. Yash looked back to Harsha and there was sympathy in his eyes. Harsha knew he was only pretending. Too many people were overseeing everything from outside. Some were peering cautiously inside the house.

Harsha got up from the floor and went to close the door of the house. The people who gathered in front of her house all gave her a disgusting look. She closed the door, and She entered the bathroom. She stood under the shower after undressing. 

A wistful smile appeared on her face. She approached her face and felt pain. She slapped her very forcefully and intentionally released all her anger. Harsha felt pain and tears were coming out of her eyes. This typically mixed with the water.

Harsha POV

Why do people think that I do not deserve any love in my life? Everyone has their designed love by god then why not for me. I also want to be loved by my love. Maybe he is waiting for me. Maybe he also wants me… maybe… maybe?  Maybe I am deceiving myself. Maybe god forgets about me and no one is waiting for me.

This is not one percent of my life. The things, which she said to me, are not that much for me. I hear all of this from my innocent childhood. Not merely does she rather the whole society considers me this. 

When I go out of my house, I have to face their disgust, their hate, their unreasonable anger. They think if they encounter my face then it will only ruin their day. Because I am wicked. Agreed, I am an unattractive girl. 

They call me ill-fated too. Because of this, I do not come in front of anyone. I instantly lower my eyes and am aware most of the time. I typically spend my time in the house. For the living, I do a part-time job for earning, but it was hard for me also.

No one gives me any job in a restaurant or any other place because they all demand attractive girls, not wicked girls like me. But when I desperately demanded a job, my uncle requested a man to provide me a job of delivery of food.

After too much begging, the responsible manager was ready to provide me a job. He was willing because if I deliver the food then one will pay attention to me. I just have to hide my face with the scarf and will not create any problem.

I do not obtain any other option. I had carried out this job for 5 years. Now I am 20. I used to think that people would accept me, as the time would pass but nothing has changed in my life. My life has become terrible. People’s insecurity has undoubtedly made my life like this.

I look ugly, but People, however, look at me with lust and desire. After all, I am a girl with a good body shape. And this bothers the other woman. I intentionally wear a loose dress so that I do not catch too many eyes but there has remained until now one question in my heart.

“Why do I have to occupy my life differently because of someone’s insecurity?”

But I am experiencing my life like this, alone. I am intentionally hiding from this social world. I am receiving too much abuse from strangers, where they serve me as they want.

Every so often, it is unbearable for me, but I have to bear it. I have to become strong, in order to save someone else. In order to hide what I have been hiding since my childhood. 

I wish I just do this forever. I wish.